Sometimes I want to invite you over
Just so I can bask in your presence
I don't want to talk
I want to know that you're there to talk to
If I wanted
I don't want to go anywhere
I want to know that you're there to go someplace with
If we wanted
Because no matter how we change
We're always there for each other
And though we're not alike in the slightest
Somehow we always think the same
And you're the one who keeps me sane
When the chaos of the storm threatens to drag me in
You're the one who reassures me that everything's going to be okay
When it seems like I can't last another day
You're the rain cloud to my sunshine
And maybe we're not perfect
And maybe we don't have to be
Because maybe it's our faults that make us who we are
And maybe it's what we do wrong that makes us so right
And maybe we're just fine
With our faults and our issues and our complexes
Sometimes I just want to invite you over so I know
I know that someone will always be there for me
And you'll never leave me in the cold
You'll always offer me a helping hand
And whisk me away on your boat when the sea becomes too rough
You'll be there to tow me back in when I fly out too far
And always be ready to journey across the galaxies
When I open my mind to you
Sometimes I just need you
Because you're always here for me
Friday, February 28, 2014
Sunday, February 2, 2014
Him
I'm like an addict and he's my drug. When he's gone, I feel alone, sad, I crave him. It hurts like a hole in my heart. And when I get that shot- that kiss, that touch, when I see his face, I know. I know I'm hooked. I am his. And he is mine. I don't want him to belong to anyone but me.
* * *
"I'm petty"
"You're perfect."
"I am unreasonable"
"You're incredible."
"I am self-centered"
"You are the center of my world."
* * *
He makes my tummy feel as though it has never tasted anything better than the butterflies fluttering about within it.
* * *
I spend my days waiting for the day I get to spend time with you, but I can't help thinking how endless time would be if I could spend every day with you.
* * *
He's a blue sky in winter
He's the sparkle in my snowflake
He makes sunshine out of cloudy days
And flowers from every storm
He's why I wake up in the morning
And get through every day
He's the sweetest piece of candy
He's my first breath of fresh air
He's beautiful and warm
And his smile lights up the dark
He's my perfect bright spot
In my world of night.
* * *
I wonder if you're still there
Waiting for me
Or if you've already moved so far
I hope that you're doing okay
I hope that sometimes you remember the good times
I hope that you learned something from me
I'm doing alright
I'm going to be okay
I remember all of the good times
I know that I learned from you
I hope you've gained some confidence
I hope you feel more sure.
I'm sorry we're not friends anymore
But I don't think we ever were.
I see you in the hallways
And it hurts me pretty bad
I'm getting over it now.
I'm still here, under all this pain
And the pain is fading
I'm feeling pretty good, most days.
I hope you're doing okay.
I hope you're having fun.
I hope she treats you well,
And that you remember to give her time.
I hope she makes you smile
I hope that you stay happy.
I'm sorry it wasn't right.
But it was time to put down the fight.
* * *
"I'm petty"
"You're perfect."
"I am unreasonable"
"You're incredible."
"I am self-centered"
"You are the center of my world."
* * *
He makes my tummy feel as though it has never tasted anything better than the butterflies fluttering about within it.
* * *
I spend my days waiting for the day I get to spend time with you, but I can't help thinking how endless time would be if I could spend every day with you.
* * *
He's a blue sky in winter
He's the sparkle in my snowflake
He makes sunshine out of cloudy days
And flowers from every storm
He's why I wake up in the morning
And get through every day
He's the sweetest piece of candy
He's my first breath of fresh air
He's beautiful and warm
And his smile lights up the dark
He's my perfect bright spot
In my world of night.
* * *
I wonder if you're still there
Waiting for me
Or if you've already moved so far
I hope that you're doing okay
I hope that sometimes you remember the good times
I hope that you learned something from me
I'm doing alright
I'm going to be okay
I remember all of the good times
I know that I learned from you
I hope you've gained some confidence
I hope you feel more sure.
I'm sorry we're not friends anymore
But I don't think we ever were.
I see you in the hallways
And it hurts me pretty bad
I'm getting over it now.
I'm still here, under all this pain
And the pain is fading
I'm feeling pretty good, most days.
I hope you're doing okay.
I hope you're having fun.
I hope she treats you well,
And that you remember to give her time.
I hope she makes you smile
I hope that you stay happy.
I'm sorry it wasn't right.
But it was time to put down the fight.
Steps to Becoming a Grown Up
1. Do your own laundry
2. Wash your dishes after you use them.
3. Make mistakes; learn from your own experiences.
4. Let your friends into your life.
5. Weed out the bad influences.
6. Experience heartbreak.
7. Give forgiveness and allow yourself to be forgiven.
8. Learn the difference between a compliment and an insult.
9. Find out what real love feels like.
10. Get a way to get around independently.
11. Learn how to trust.
12. Work hard for what you want.
13. Make your own money.
14. Balance your needs and desires.
15. Become financially independent.
16. Book your own appointments.
17. Choose to do the right thing on your own.
18. Accept good advice and respect constructive criticism.
19. Believe in your own abilities.
20. Rely on yourself.
21. Trust someone to take care of you, if you need it.
22. Make memories.
23. Understand differences of opinion are okay.
24. Look deeper than the black and white of the book.
25. Allow yourself to have fun.
26. Remember that the world was made in color, not grayscale.
27. Accept yourself for who you are.
28. Sort out your priorities.
29. Make your bed without being told.
30. Make promises and then keep them.
I wonder if people go through some sort of initiation ceremony into adulthood,
or if you just have to work your way through the pain and tears and heartbreak of adolescence.
I wonder if anyone is waiting on the other side to welcome you in,
or if it feels just as lonely.
I wonder if being a grown up empowers you,
or if the suddenness of being allowed to make your own decisions cripples you.
I wonder if everyone grows up eventually,
or if we're too scared to let go completely.
I wonder if the people that seem so grown up, so frighteningly mature, wish that they had stayed children,
or if they wish they could've become the artist they wanted to be instead of the CEO they became.
I wonder if grown ups know what they are doing,
or if they're just as clueless as any of us.
I wonder if the meaning of life suddenly becomes clear when you're an adult,
or if you're still stuck, feeling like you've been wandering in circles forever.
I wonder if becoming an adult grounds you to where you are,
or if the wanderlust is amplified.
I wonder if the adults wish that they hadn't settled down because it seemed time,
or if they wished they could've made more mistakes in their lives.
I wonder if the mistakes you make a permanent when you're an adult,
or if you're still allowed to learn from them.
I wonder if anybody grows up at all. It doesn't sound very fun. Why do we all race towards the unknown when if we really knew what it was like, we would sit back and enjoy the ride. I wonder if someday I'm going to wish that I'd stayed a child, instead of aspiring to be a grown up just so that I could have my own freedom. Is the freedom worth the cost? Is the freedom of driving a car worth losing the freedom of expression or the freedom of free time? Is the freedom of spending your own money worth the cost of abandoning your childhood dreams? Is the freedom worth the cost?
2. Wash your dishes after you use them.
3. Make mistakes; learn from your own experiences.
4. Let your friends into your life.
5. Weed out the bad influences.
6. Experience heartbreak.
7. Give forgiveness and allow yourself to be forgiven.
8. Learn the difference between a compliment and an insult.
9. Find out what real love feels like.
10. Get a way to get around independently.
11. Learn how to trust.
12. Work hard for what you want.
13. Make your own money.
14. Balance your needs and desires.
15. Become financially independent.
16. Book your own appointments.
17. Choose to do the right thing on your own.
18. Accept good advice and respect constructive criticism.
19. Believe in your own abilities.
20. Rely on yourself.
21. Trust someone to take care of you, if you need it.
22. Make memories.
23. Understand differences of opinion are okay.
24. Look deeper than the black and white of the book.
25. Allow yourself to have fun.
26. Remember that the world was made in color, not grayscale.
27. Accept yourself for who you are.
28. Sort out your priorities.
29. Make your bed without being told.
30. Make promises and then keep them.
I wonder if people go through some sort of initiation ceremony into adulthood,
or if you just have to work your way through the pain and tears and heartbreak of adolescence.
I wonder if anyone is waiting on the other side to welcome you in,
or if it feels just as lonely.
I wonder if being a grown up empowers you,
or if the suddenness of being allowed to make your own decisions cripples you.
I wonder if everyone grows up eventually,
or if we're too scared to let go completely.
I wonder if the people that seem so grown up, so frighteningly mature, wish that they had stayed children,
or if they wish they could've become the artist they wanted to be instead of the CEO they became.
I wonder if grown ups know what they are doing,
or if they're just as clueless as any of us.
I wonder if the meaning of life suddenly becomes clear when you're an adult,
or if you're still stuck, feeling like you've been wandering in circles forever.
I wonder if becoming an adult grounds you to where you are,
or if the wanderlust is amplified.
I wonder if the adults wish that they hadn't settled down because it seemed time,
or if they wished they could've made more mistakes in their lives.
I wonder if the mistakes you make a permanent when you're an adult,
or if you're still allowed to learn from them.
I wonder if anybody grows up at all. It doesn't sound very fun. Why do we all race towards the unknown when if we really knew what it was like, we would sit back and enjoy the ride. I wonder if someday I'm going to wish that I'd stayed a child, instead of aspiring to be a grown up just so that I could have my own freedom. Is the freedom worth the cost? Is the freedom of driving a car worth losing the freedom of expression or the freedom of free time? Is the freedom of spending your own money worth the cost of abandoning your childhood dreams? Is the freedom worth the cost?
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