Lost

You say that nobody gets you,
And yet you never explain.
No one can get close to you
Because you fear they're all the same.
You try to understand,
And then crumble and fall
When it becomes clear to you
That it was all your fault.
You cannot trust anyone,
But you know that anyone can trust you.
And I'm not sure why
But that doesn't feel quite right.
You're breaking under the pressure
 Of being smart and perfect
You wish they could just see
 How fallible you truly are
Without needing you to mess up first.
You cannot depend on anyone
For fear of being let down
And so, you will always be there
When someone needs you around.
 You've been hurt,
But try not to let it drag you down.
You are scarred inside,
But only in the very deepest recesses of your mind
Where you hide all the pain and tears
Where no one would ever think to look.
You lose yourself amongst others' expectations
You lose yourself trying to become what you're not.
You want to be loved.
You want to be coddled.
You want to be told that everything will be okay.
And it will.
It just so happens that,
Yes, you are broken.
But, you can be fixed.
Not everything will stay this way
And someday, when you've lived through this
You will be whole again.